Leaving the Darkness of the Basement Home

I have been hiding all my life, with the last ten years, quite literally, often curled up in the darkness in the fudal position. I felt i am him, or i was, until i found the course 16 months ago. When powder chose ascension at the end of the film, running toward the lightning, toward god and communion, i knew i was supposed to feel a rightness to it and a transcendence uplifted. In early two thousand 18 i decided that two thousandn eight was my last year. The past 18 or past 16 months, have been that miracle, over and over. Everything changed and changing.