I Am, I Am Filled, but I'm Not Enough in My Vocation

i'm learning to less quickly try to fill with other things, which is exactly what you're describing. I've even started to be less quick to come to you when i'm struggling because that was actually one of the great escapes for me in the beginning. We think that it immediately needs to be filled. And so there's something to be said for allowing ourselves to experience loneliness as a spiritual fasting.