I'm Trans and I'm About to Embark Upon the Legal Process of Changing My Name

This question is from fletcher who asks, dear hankan john, i'm trans and i'm about to embark upon the legal process of changing my name. I've already decided on f Fletcher as my first name, but am feeling conflicted when it comes to my middle name. On one hand, my father was called james, and i know it would make him happy to choose it. So i wouldn't be forcing myself to have a middle name that i despise for all eternity. The name balthasar is cool as hek, and it would make my initials fbi. If you want to just say it on three, or do you lie? Fate? Hashis w