I've Baked a Chicken, I'm Sorry. I Don't Want to Kill It Like a Chicken

I grew up interacting with lots of animals and chickens were some of those. I was probably too young for this was a rite of passage to have to kill one and process it. So maybe psychologically for you, that could be an inflection moment. A lot of childhood fears or like deep-seated fears, they only remain that and things that actually affect you because you don't address them head on.