How Did You Know That You Had a Bipolar Disorder?

i used to pull away from people when i felt scared and nervous and betrayed. And really just like i used to be, i think i used to being really angry,. I used to expect people to lie to me and leave me. All these different things that i now is were coming from somewhere inside me. Sometimes they weren't, sometimes i was right, and sometimes that was fully happening. It's too lonely outenot too hard out there. We need to do this together.