I've always been a fan, but never quite felt like it was my place to be a part of that. Like I couldn't go into a sex shop and buy a porno or even a sex toy. And then I wrote an erotic book when my mum passed away 15 years ago. She went, oh, you can't say that? Can I not? But it wasn't a sex book. It was just using fuck in a book. So even then it felt like, well, that's not for me then. Even though you felt like you wanted sex. Yeah. This is why I'm so fascinated about your open sexuality. You've always been in, you know,