OCD - Is This What My Life Is Going to Be Like?

i have crippling obsessive compulsive disorder that i've been battling for probably four years. I don't think of it as like a debilitating condition, like a depression or an anxiety. So hene night when my uncle killed himself, i was like, god, is this what my life is going to be like? And luckily, i was able find some kind of solution. so i might realyise, i think, dear w i think that's something to be thankful for.