Do you actually think that now looking back, do you genuinely feel you were missing something or do you feel now that actually that was just something you were telling yourself?

To be honest I still feel like I'm missing something. There's something in me, there's a lack of common sense. I have become a lot better at a lot of things and maybe it's like this for everyone but there are times like especially if I find myself in a situation I've never been in before and I go into myself for the appropriate response and there's a blankness there which can be really frightening. Now it's not always there. There can be times when I'm asked a challenging question or somebody is particularly unpleasant to me and I've got a really withering response. The odd time I can manage that but there are times when you go into yourself and you think how do I respond and all I find is like a door into an empty room and there's nothing there to enable me to progress in that particular mini little exchange. So I do I suppose but maybe everybody is like that and maybe people are just better at faking it like I'm very open about how I feel and how I function or don't function in the world. Maybe other people are just better at thinking do not tell people how inadequate you can be and maybe it's that.

I think other people probably lack your insight as well because you're incredibly insightful about the human condition when it comes to observing and writing character and you must therefore be able to apply that to yourself in a unique way. Yes.

Yeah I mean I'm very very skating in the way I self-analyze. I know an awful lot of my bad bits. I am well aware of them and I wish I was a better person. I know myself.