Do You Feel Safe in the World?

A lot of my life has been about not doing the standard job, doing stuff only if it feels meaningful to me. Until i gota sort of practice enough at holding that complexity, i think a primary one for me is just like em is yet filling my time. I'm learning to use aliveness and the energetic response in my body to be a compass toward what i should do. For me, joy just feels like happiness or a liveness felt like a sematic, tangible sensation where i was either depleted with energy or i was filled with energy.