When Your Mom Died, Are You Gratitude for This?

When your mom died, this was 2013, were you able to feel grateful? Well grateful for her life, Grateful for her life for sure. I suppose grateful that she didn't die in pain,. But no, that feeling of gratitude is a general one for my existence that encompasses the bad things that happened to me. And so to discover that it encompassed even the thing that I wished hadn't happened was a profound feeling for me because that is such a cliff that I fell off emotionally and psychically and spiritually at that age. Yes, I am also grateful for this.