How to Navigate Christmas

I felt quite jealous in a weird way that I was like oh you've had all that time me and Tom would walk down the street and gooh we're gonna be that little old couple on the bench eating our chips or whatever together. to these ladies again they'd all lost their partners at differing moments some relatively early but there's other women were doing great with it. It gave you some hope it did give me hope it again mixed I felt different emotions didn't I yeah I felt jealousy but then I felt hopeful as well so and you never think you'd be jealous of a 80-year-old woman but I wasYeah I get it I totally get it and I think it's