After the first time I was sexually assaulted when I was 14, it was kind of a ripple of events that happened. So I couldn't express my feelings in a healthy way in my household. Growing up if I expressed my feelings or weakness around my own family, it wasn't it wasn't perceived well and it wasn't a good outcome. Perseverance? I don't know. Through all this and because like my parents didn't do taxes, so I had to like do pay for college all the way up front like no loans or anything., she said.