I Feel Drawn, You Know?

I feel drawn when i'm, you know, doing the high side of the body type's right? I am so driven when anything is off. So much of my try piece, and where it feels forced, it feels driven either to avoid or just frick an get this over with,. Is in a lot of myself, pres ere yes. But now it's starting to feel like, ugh. I just don't have that in me in the same way that i used to.