What Would It Look Like to Walk Through Your Own Life Like a Foreigner?

When's the last time you were blown away by god? I'm not talking about a b m w, i'm talking about forgiveness. What used to blow me away, i's now just benefits. If i hadn't gone through that, i wouldn't have this. The trick is not recognizing god's guidance later. To say like jacob, the lord was in this place and i was not aware of it.