Is There Something Deeper Than the Past?

It's not so much ing aware of the fact that you exist, without becoming aware of the underlying being that gives rise to your existence. There's nothing to understand. If you examine your historical self, your psychological self, then you may need understanding. You might need to go to psychotherapis to figure out things you had not been aware of before. But here, in that immediate realization of being, i am, there's no doubt about that, that there is a consciousness here. Prior to whatever arises in that consciousness, there is a presence a consciousness.