i think there is some way in which, like i've written t nin in my work, but you can read that from my cold dead hands, is basically a suicide vale. I'd rather have this gun and glingo and cling to this power than let an alternative world happen. Andn and i i will say that this is hat, the thing has been more distressing and depressing for me,. The cheapness of life when it comes to hundred million dollar planes and missiles and the like is the numbers and figures are geologic in their scale. These amarabsare ore a mess. We throw more and more money at them.