The Difference Between Being a Christian and Not

Church pastor is my office. I have authority in it. It's given to me from God though recognized by the congregation But I Am going to experience eternity as I understand it not fundamentally differently because I'm a pastor Then if I had another job and tried to perform it as a Christian whereas Being a church member means really being a Christian. So if I'm not able to be a member because I'm not I'm not in Christ. If I continue in my sins unrepentant and were to die that way. That points to a much more serious eternal difference between the happiness and blessedness I would expect forever with the Lord being in Christ  by faith being united to him.