The Tsarevitch's Desperation

On november first, 18 94, the tsar's illness took him. It was time for the tsarevitch to take up his mantle. And nicholas was terrified. We even have his desperate question he asked to his brother in law. What is i going to do? He asked. I am not prepared to be czar. I never wanted to become one. I know nothing of the business of ruling. Helen rapeport agrees.