Ketamine and Manic Depression

Ketamine has given him an awareness of when he's escalating into mania. Now, I am much more able to spot it coming on and catch it very quickly. And I also have an awareness, a much bigger social conscience. So an awareness of how my behavior affects other people. Like the hell that I've put my mother through when I've been manic or suicidal for that matter. It's torture for my mother. Right. You know, my, it's torture for some of my close friends as well. So I'm like, well, I'm starting to go manic. Well, I could ride this out and get higher and higher. And I could, but I