My therapist says I'm more tired today than she's ever seen me. Here are some reasons my brain says I cannot sleep:
- My boss might lose faith in my ability to manage projects. Something important might go wrong with my project (Inkhaven), and I am the only person on-call who has the context to fix it all. If I screw it up he might no longer be willing to give me big projects like this.
- Annoying social drama. There was one yesterday, that made me anxious and unable to relax until it was dealt with. I had just come out of a massage supposed to relax me, and yet I was immediately un-relaxed for a few hours.
- I associate being in bed with checking Reddit/YouTube. Whoops. Perhaps I should have better spaces to do this, so that I never do it in bed? Alas, I live in a single room with a bed and a desk, this is my private space. I have a hard time just going to sleep in bed.
- There are 50-60 people on campus who I am responsible for. When people are around they ask you questions and to solve their problems. All. The. [...]
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First published:
November 26th, 2025
Source:
https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/JEngXyYHLDLWdW9TB/reasons-why-i-cannot-sleep
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