Difference Making Risk Adverse Preferences

Many people find that even after they're aware of all the things I just said they still feel a pull towards difference making risk aversion. So what's up with that? Here's a conjecture perhaps the desire to make a difference and a version to the risk in the difference one makes is a matter of something like desiring that your own life be meaningful. It doesn't immediately follow that there's anything morally odious about those preferences. Maybe it's just a kind of preference that belongs in the non-consequentialist part of morality if there is such a part. If so, maybe for the reason stated in these talks this is not a matter of pure benevolence but unless you