I've written it about five times on my page like I hide how I feel from others just you know because it's easier to hide how I feeling and let them be happy. So now I'm going to ask Smurky and Zell difficult question okay since you all leveled up recently we're going to see. What do you imagine Ruby is feeling as she connects those dots? It was like a mix of like externally like you're laughing like oh how silly. You had this idea of yourself that is now being kind of Challenged so you're probably excited but also sad.