Reflections on the School Shooting

The speaker reflects on their emotions and feelings immediately after the school shooting they were involved in. They describe how they became disassociated and didn't feel any remorse or regret at the time. However, as time went on, they started to realize the long-term effects of their actions and the immense pain and trauma they caused to the victims, their families, and the community. They express a desire to prevent similar tragedies from happening in other communities.