The Systemic Reality of the Quiver Full Movement

My family was part of or were you loosely affiliated with this probably more honest way to say like with the quiver full movement, which is kind of a fringe of the purity culture. There's some narcissism within my family of origin itself there's some narcissistic structures that I often felt and occasionally sometimes will still feel like oh I'm crazy like my reality is not real. The loyalty and protectiveness that I've had towards my family continues to be there to some extent and probably always will be. And so even when there were chunks of my life where it's hard to have explicit memory or or the memories I have like I would question or question my own reality or my way of thinking about