Are You a Philosopher Who Wants More Productivity?

i like that phrase of performing mastery, to feel like you don't have to prove yourself all the time. But i do sometimes wish that i had a little more ease with formalism and technical stuff. It's not like i can't do the technical stuff, but i'm not one of these logicy people to whom it comes as absolute second nature. Is there a trait you wish you had more of as a philosopher? Yes, i wish i had more productivity now.