How Do You Feel When You Lose Your Parents?

I feel like they're really unethical. I think the Amish to begin with her just extremely unethical and I don't know how any of that's like yeah. You like go for a walk and there's someone in a horse and carrot. So that other places on a horse and buggy is they were so annoying to grow up around. Yeah anything that's super strict anything like that is just awful it's so bad for humanity. And you want I also lost parent I don’t know which parent you lost but I lost my mom when I was I had really young like eight years old or to me that feels really young.