What Kind of Emotions Did You Feel When You Were Depressed?

i felt like my body was on an auto pilot, and i was just watching my life go by. Like it wasn't actually my life, it was like a video game i was playing. I started hermon therapy when i got back from my mission to explore what transition would mean for me. It's kind of funny, um, how things change in retrospect. At the time,like, i wouldn't have even been able to tell you what it was i was feeling.