The main thing is to think of god. That is more important than thinking about whether i am enlightened or not, am i a jigon muta or not? Vansadu said, witintai ashubah, that is inauspicious thinking. One may not have become enlightened, but o the centred ness. This one all pervasive existence. Consciousness, bliss. Stay with that. It doesn't matter at all whether the body stays or dies. An yogi says, this is the war cry of a nondualist. Gana vihina vihina: Without enlightenment you give no use unless you get it within your lifetime. None of this