The Presence Is Just Attention, Attention Is Non Conceptual

You cannot conceptually explain what presence is to the mind, because it immediately takes you beyond the mind. This attention basically means this little or no thought. So you shine the light on people, and then you can speak, and the light is still there. I often feel i'm overwhelmed by anger which makes me a throw my spiritual practice really out the window. It's like a big impotence that i feel an pessimism. That's one thing. And the other thing is, i also feel very often that something is wrong, so i need to take some actions to correct something that, no, probably just imaginary. But i have to to do something about it, yes?