"If i can't take responsibility for mistakes i'm making game, i can't imagine whati'm going to be like in real life," he says. "I feel like a, any stereotyping, like a thinking, like teabeshes are movies, like an abusive, an abuse of dew." 'It's so much easier jus like put on some one else than yourself, displacing the pain and rage,' he adds. "'You're just engulfed you're just your you're just seeing red' - that's how I felt when people were being toxic towards me,'" she writes.