Is There a Scale of One to Ten?

When I was 18 and of course in my first book I'd tell the story of how I met monks. When I was at university, I would dissect a movie based on philosophy, psychology and spirituality. And I did it for the first year and five to 10 people came. Second year, maybe 25 people came. Third year, there were sometimes where 100 people were in the room. Then I became a monk. The responsibility scale level is so much higher now. It's not that I don't feel peaceful in my purpose. But it's that you do deal with daily stress, daily challenges, daily pressure in a way that I didn't before. Because it was just about me.