But but the the encounter with knowledge and the first in but of course, the whole story feels like a set up. And there's a lot to say about that mythical story in the bible. But one of the things that commentators in the jewish traditions uminon is the consequences afterwards for each of the characters. And so this teaching is about the curse of the serpent. And the serpent is cursed with three things for seducing, seducing eve to eat from the tree of knowledge. One is that the serpent is going to crawl on its belly. Next is that the serpent is going to eat of the dust of the earth. And the third is that there will be perpetual conflict between the serpent's descendants and humanity. So there was another great hasitic master, the rebbe of kotsk, who was known for his passion for truth. Heshel wrote a book about him called a passion for truth a. He wasa a completely uncompromising radical, a revolutionary master, who spent the last thirteen years of his life in solitude because he he felt the world was just filled with with distortion and falsehood. And there's a lot to say about him. But he asks the question about the curse of the serpent. What kind of curse is it that god tells the serpent, you're going to eat of the dust of the earth? That doesn't really sound like a curse. That really sounds like a blessing, because that means the kurt the serpent is never going to experience hunger. The serpent is never going to be hungry. There's dust of the earth everywhere. Anywhere you go, you're going to have food. So what's the curse? And he answers that itself is the curse. To never be hungry is the worst curse of all. To never have yearning, to never lift your eyes in expectation of a gift, to never have a gap between your need and the need's fulfil ant. To never be vulnerable. That's the ultimate curse. And that's very much with me, because i think it helps me to recognize that our yearning and our lack, with all the pain that it brings, and i can only say this about my own yearning and my own lack, never about some one else, but my own yearning, my own lack, is a great blessing. What opens me up to have the desire to learn and the desire to grow, and the desire to work on myself in all the ways i need to work on myself. And that's a reframing that that teaching really has given me these past months.