"The biggest, the most disgraceful thing that I ever did was go through life and justify me wasting a day and being a piece of shit by my teammates sacrifices," he says. "You won't beat me because like, unless you're willing to kill me,. Like you ain't going to fucking beat me because I know how far I'm willing to go to lose." He adds: "I went in that day to go save my teammates. And I don't change the narrative because it doesn't feel good".