I've Just Been Like Laughing at Myself

All my thoughts start with what if, i'm a big believer and no sentences starting with what if. And so for me, my sense of humour is, like, i've got into the place where if i say, what if, ba babis, i immediately tell myself, like, we're not doing that. It's just stupid. If i can't even foking remember, it's clearly not that important. So why do i have to let go on a mission to like remind myself why i'm anxious and go down that rabbit hole? I kind of posted about this on the atmood with lorn elizabeth and stograam, kind of similarly to how