Is There a Man With the Plan?

There's a mind disease that can set in, especially if you aren't facing adversity. And i've got to the point now, when i'm meditating, where if i get the flicker of an idea, like, i think i'm beginning to wake up now, i'm like, no, this is bad new thinking. Because inevitably those thoughts are followed by getting angry, or getting drunk and saying something dumb,. Or just wizing, you know, and realizing, like, god, it's were so i'm so flaw wl, no, i did. Well yet, right?