Are You Trying to Be More Productive?

i still don't know for sure if it's just from getting older, or if it's from thinking about this. The past ten years of my life have been a move from from being just gunghole about stuff to being more and more relaxed,. lazier about stuff, and trying really hard. And i think succeeding. Did not beat myself up over it, and like just b ok with eating junk food now and then whatever. So i would say i have done that. Is it actually working? Ishave i more fulfilled or better? No, that is a result. I don't know. Impossible to know, because life, you know, changes in all the other ways too