I'm Not Sure if It's the Guilt Associated With Quito or Not.

I'm pretty good at just doing what i've is accepting and enjoying and being present, yet i'm not like that. Cause i'm confident in my home base, my foundation. I can get back to it easily. But im, i used to be less. So, for the first couple of years of doing quito, any day now i could just go back and be my old self. But i don't think that any more, cause i could never go back to eating standard american diet. And maybe because it's like the bloating, that reminds me that i ate it. You know. It's like the after effects that give me a little reminder....