When Did You Know You Were Gay?

When i was a kid, all i knew about being gay is that you'll die of age. I also thought i could give myself h i v because there was so much of that going on. My weirdness was feeling like you even though i am, i am straight. The first timei i did that, i stopped myself from climaxing ause. Just just like, i really hurts. That blue ball really hurt. It really hurts.