Are You Meant to Find That Hopeful or Like Incredibly Cynical?

I loved mad men because it was a deeply embittered person making what he felt like was emotionally true. And I feel very, very, very cynical about all experiences in life. But I also am like kind of a softy and there's like, that's a hard to pull off. If the ending of it isn't like anyway, a sincere like opening of the heart, like,  lol. Like, if we have no conscious consumption, we might as well consume things that are good.