Theology and Theology for a Womer in a Tako

i grew up in a christian home. My dad was actually a pastor for the first couple of years of my life. I knew who god as, although i don't think i had a personal relationship with him. And so at a really young age, i was going, ok, all these people say god is good and god is with us, and i have these terrible things that have happened to me at such a young age.