"I was able to get over it very quickly, because it occurred precisely and immediately after I graduated high school from a military academy," he says. "My self-confidence, my courage, my healthy masculinity had, in retrospect, just finished being somewhat cemented when this happened." The tanner today could be extremely timid, afraid of the world, uncomfortable around older men and strangers,. And whose fault would that have been? He thinks of this experience a lot, and she doesn't do it to manage her resilience. She does it to remind herself that luck exists.