Do You Still Feel Like a Loser?

i think that part of my obsession with attention is that it pulls me into the present. How do you stop basically struggling to make something go the way you want it to? Bor how do you surrender? I guess i'm going with this am i think you need to clear the drama from the past. All those things that may have happened to you in the past, maybe you didn't feel like you were in choice cause you didn't know any better. You were too young. You were just learning. And then you realize you're in choice now. It doesn't mean ou can't look everywhere in your life for all the things i have that i prayed for years ago and am