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Better Blowjobs, Better Mental ft. Bradley Martyn

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I've Been Dealing With That for a Long Time Now.

A good friend of mine had me write a letter to my younger self And that was that that changed my life. My perspective is completely entirely different on someone who did that right like I'm never say It's good you took your life But as I aged and as I dealt with people and losses and got fucked over and taken advantage of and hurt I started to realize like Not why someone would take them their life, but how he could get there based on his life and his circumstances. So it's all about just being able to go back and pull those things and like look at them through like a real honest lens with yourself now.

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Speaker 2
They're not I mean I'm 30 and I just in the past Year and like starting that journey of like talking to my inner or my younger self Yeah, which you talk about that a lot. Yeah, I've been dealing with that for a long time Can you explain that because I haven't fully like I've dived into that shit. Yeah. Well, um a good friend
Speaker 1
of mine. He came on the pod He's a mentor of mine. He he had me write a letter to my younger self And that was that that changed my life. Okay. Absolutely. Yeah Rode a wrote a letter to my six year old self in relationship to what had happened and It just allowed me to put thought you know pen to paper like the thoughts that I have now as a 30 year old 33 year old man in relationship to myself as a six year old man a six year old kid right now And where I'm able to say like I know you felt this way But here's your perspective now and like wow what happened to you then is not Gonna dictate your life now. You don't have to allow it. So I wrote all these things to myself Literally a letter to myself. I'm not opening the like the mailbox is a six year old being like oh shit I'm reading this I'm reading it as myself now But it was to myself and that that really changed my perspective It was crazy because when he told me to write that letter to myself I was like this is I remember thinking like what
Speaker 2
is that gonna do? Is this gonna
Speaker 1
benefit me? But I but I just started writing and then like I'm like crying like writing this shit. Wow Yeah, it's just uh you you don't Fuck you I don't think you realize I don't think you realize how much shit like You you don't think of until you start like really putting it out right until
Speaker 2
you're older and you're Writing it on people yeah,
Speaker 1
and you have perspective. So like I've always talked about this too. My my father took his life when he was I think 38 38 or 36 years old and now I'm 33 and My perspective is completely entirely different on someone who did that right like I'm never say It's good you took your life But as I aged and as I went through shit and as I dealt with people and losses and got fucked over and taken advantage of and hurt I started to realize like Not why someone would take them their life, but like how he could get there based on his life and his circumstances because you never have that Perspective as a six-year-old you're not like this guy just left me now I'm just they're gonna figure out my life and that's your only perspective But looking back now I'm like damn the amount of shit I've gone through now I'm not saying it makes sense, but it definitely it paints a much different picture for me to see it now
Speaker 2
You understand it more I understand
Speaker 1
him yeah exactly Like where he could have been and what he might have been doing and based on the stories and things that I learned about him after the fact Obviously in my older age and their relationship to the things that I've been through in my older age I'm able to say wow not that this was okay, but I can understand how someone can get there more Absolutely So it's it's all about just being able to go back and pull those things and like look at them through like a real honest lens with yourself now And that's really hard for a lot of people to do because it's fucking uncomfortable
Speaker 2
See I feel very comfortable and I'm very self-aware And I don't know how to even get there Like get that deep and like how did you?

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