What Caused You to Have a Different Experience With MDM?

M d m: I've never even been close to that experience since wel. And i asked myself, why did that happen? It is the most unexplainable thing that's ever happened in my life. The way i try and make sense of it to day is that i was so off coarse, i was so asleep at the wheel. He says he needed an initial explosion to keep him engaged down the path. "If i would have had a normal experience that night, it wouldn't have caused me to want to search deeper"