When You Have a Doubt, What Was That Uncertainty About?

As paul approached 54, the unformed anxiety in his heart that began at age 22 started to take concrete shape. The more he thought about the second dream, the more he realized it was ambiguous. When paul is nervous, he laughs. It's a tick. I noticed as i got to know him, as we talked, he corrected his comment that he'd never share the story of the two dreams with anyone. He told me he had told two people about the second dreaming. And afterwards, i i regret that little bit, because i felt like maybe i had shared some burden with them,. That what i was carrying, i needed to carry.