Is There Something Inside of Us That Is Addicted to Suffering?

Is there something inside ourselves that is addicted to suffering? Bo, because i don't see another explanation. I feel sometimes when you're enjoying it like that, there's an easy forgetting of self. In suffering, it tends to sort of really amplify yor fy idea, the idea of being the one who's suffering. So if it's suffering, there you go. The cards will get flipped, and you can fuck and see it.