You Know I Don't Have a Large Family but You Can Make It Work

I didn't necessarily think I would still be alive beyond my 20s and make any plans a very very nihilistic. Me too. No that's an incredible perspective. Yeah it just didn't make sense you know life was for pleasure consuming things as playing your cards as they lay and getting to whatever spot and then what next the sex in the city is next? You can just keep on going, right? So yeah so yeah it was it was very kind of a mix of wishful thinking and kind of closing your eyes and hoping  for a sudden accident when you were 30 and then it would be a lights out and you didn't have to worry about it.