i never thought any of it affected my aself perception or my identity. And there were parts that i ended up enjoying. You know, i finally got around to forcing myself to wear contact lenses. It made a big difference and how i could actually see as well as be seen. I i had a lot of fun. All of a sudden, you know, thinking, well, you know, i don't have to just wear turtle necks and and baggy vests and, you know, skirts and pants or whatever. So, yes, they're parts of it that were interesting that maybe i wouldn't have pursued had i i not married bill, or had i not ever married anybody