You also mentioned your, your experience with the brain cheatment rit and you were working at capital account. I read your account of that. You'll probably haven't revisited it for a while. But what really interested me was the way you spoke about memory and the mind. And i wanted to touch on that briefly, because i think it does tie in a little bit later to a, you know, the world that we're living in at the moment. In some ways, at least, there seems to be some parallels to me. What did that crazy experience of having this severely debilitating tumo that was affecting your way tor you know, relate to others, interpret d in front