i take it from your work that you're not religious in any traditional sense, although i have no idea what you believe about god or some higher spirit. But everything you've just described implies that there could be built into the laws of nature some directionality to it. Maybe the multiverseis the answer to this. There's just multiple universes, and those that have these laws of nature give rise to beings like us that ask these questions. Or maybe there's some kind of structure to it that some higher being that we can't even conceive of a built into it. To me, er reality is profoundly self organizing.